It is day two of being single (I assume anyway, he hasn't said one way or another so fuck it), and I am not sure how I feel yet. I think I am numb. Not sure what to think yet, and am trying to fill up my days for the next few weeks so I am busy and do not have time to think.

This is strange you know. I hope my head will clear a bit over the next few days. Could do with some time off now, but I suppose I am off next week so that is better than nothing. Shit always happens when I am about to go on holiday, every fucking time. For years. Why?! Who knows. I don't want to be tested anymore, with shit like this. I want to potter with my horse, not worry about work, and do my readings and stuff. I want my emotions to stop I think.

Back to docs? Probably.:(